Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Saturday Ladies Group!

Addison Smith, Jane Wadsworth, Payton Smith, Natalee Wadsworth, Lindy Wadsworth, Abby Jensen

Not pictured: Maryanne Wadsworth (waitress), Anne Smith (waitress)

The "Saturday Ladies Group" met again this week for tea at Mama Smith's Cafe. Six totally adorable, little ladies showed up for the delectable spread. While feasting on the totally exquisite snacks, the ladies discussed a wide variety of subjects, including the weather, fashion styles, and the latest Primary music. Only a few accidents were noted during their social gathering. The ladies kept the two waitresses rather busy filling Cheetos bowls, fish eggs bowls, and tea cups. However, a good time was had by all!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Tip-Toe Through the Rocks!

The girls and I went for a hike to Grimes Point/Hidden Cave Archaeological Site. It was a beautiful evening, NO WIND, we decided to take advantage of it and get out of dodge! It was a backyard adventure! We climbed, jumped, picked flowers, hiked off the trail, pretended we were leading the music at Primary,and pretty much broke every rule that is set up for a Nevada Recreational Park. But we had fun! We are looking forward to returning and making it to the top of the mountain. We only did a small little hike. We did see rabbits, lizards, and birds. I was busy looking and listening for any snakes. Unfortunately, I made the mistake of saying, "Look for snakes." Addison was a bit nervous the rest of the time. I hope I don't pass the "worry disease" on to her. I had to assure her that yes, there could be snakes, but we would see them before anything happened. Payton, on the other hand, was everywhere. She wanted to climb every rock - by herself. Every sign was the music stand - I only know this because as I was walking past her, I heard her singing a Primary song. I turned around to see if I was really hearing what I thought I was, and she was waving one of her hands in the air. So cute! I tried to capture but the little bugger wouldn't do it again. We went to Harmon Junction on the way home and got some ice cream cones. It was a great way to end the day. These are the moments that get me through the days when Addison and Payton are not with me. These moments are the tender mercies that my Heavenly Father so graciously blesses me with. Little moments that assure me that everything will be all right; that my Heavenly Father knows me, my worries, concerns, and fears. I am so thankful for evenings like this. Evenings that take the three of us on an adventure together.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

A Tea Party!

Addison and Payton have some very darling little girls that live behind us. Their names are Maryanne and Lindy.

We have them over quite often. They like to dress-up, play dolls, color, giggle, and run around the house. It makes me so happy (even teary eyed) to hear them play and laugh. So on this particular day I decided to make it extra special. I decided to give them a small tea party. I put some careful thought into the menu. I had to make sure that all who attended would be pleased with the refreshments! After careful consideration, I served to them: Cheetos, fish eggs (Skittles), and punch. I was the waitress. They were a very demanding table of little ladies. I was busy putting the napkin on each of their laps, refilling the empty tea cups, replacing empty Cheetos and fish egg bowls. All the while they sat at the table gossiping, talking, and laughing! We only had one minor spill. Much to my dismay, however, they didn't leave a tip. But they walked away from the table orange and replenished. Payton trying to decide if she should steal some of Addison's Cheetos. Addison telling quite the story.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Back Again!

It has been a terribly busy month! It has been an emotional rollercoaster - up and down. One second, all is well and the next, I am convinced there is no hope. But I just press on and pray and pray and pray and pray.... I moved back to Fallon, Nevada on March 21, 2008. It was one of the hardest days of my life. If I thought it would be easy, I was dead wrong. It was awful. I didn't think I would feel that way; I was so ready to move on and close that chapter of my life. But I got through it with lots of tears and lots of hugs! I am so thankful for all the wonderful people who came so early that Friday morning and helped load the trucks and trailers. I was so grateful that I didn't really have to think...I was just going through the motions - there physically but not mentally. My family and friends just kind of took over. I am so appreciative of them.

I was able to get settled into my new home rather quickly with lots of help! At first I was unsure if I had made the right decision to move back to Fallon. I wasn't really sure of anything. But after a few touches to my home, setting out pictures and few familiar things, I felt better. Now, I love my home, it has really grown on me. It feels so peaceful and calm; not even close to the feeling that was in the house on Boda Lane. I know without a doubt that this is where I am supposed to be and it just feels so GOOD to be sure of something finally!
It is hardest on me to be away from Addison and Payton. I struggle with this everyday. I think it would be safe to say, I think of them every other minute. They are in my mind all the time. I can't stand to be away from them. It seems unnatural to take children away from their mother - even for 50% of the time. I don't know if I will ever get used to this. I don't know if I can forgive for this part of the divorce. Instead of coping and dealing with this, I feel as if I am getting more bitter about it as time goes by. I want my girls here with me, their mother. I can't get over the fact that they are not. I cherish the moments I am with them. I want to kiss their cheeks and love them nonstop. (I think they get sick of me mauling them.) They are my treasures. Ohhh, I love them.

The new job is going good. I don't have a classroom yet so I work out of a P.E. office. I am busy buying equipment for the class and searching the Internet for curriculum ideas. I have been traveling to Reno for meetings with other Health Occupation teachers. I am going to Elko in a few weeks to observe their classroom and get ideas from them. I am also traveling to Las Vegas at the end of this month to a convention. This is a nice diversion for me. I think it will help me move on; I HAVE to get up everyday, get dressed, do my hair, and my makeup. Some mornings, I just don't want to. But I like the job so far and I like the people I work with. This is always a bonus. A lot of the teachers I knew from before so it is easy to fit right back in.

I get to pick up the girls tomorrow evening! YEAH! I can hardly wait. All is well. All is well